Rebecca – The Turning Points

From Whence She Cometh…

Rebecca Ellen Kurtz was born in rural Chesapeake, Virginia, the youngest of three daughters. Her loving, supportive family ran a Mennonite dairy and agricultural farm where Rebecca could often be found creating fantastical worlds amongst the combines and barns.

Through her formative junior and high school years at loving Christian institutions, she immersed herself in extracurricular sports, forensics, theatrical performances, choir, and Student Senate. Her interests morphed in college, still encompassing acting, but diverging to include the debate team, being a radio DJ, and counseling rape and abuse victims; thus, Rebecca was torn as to whether a degree in archaeology, theater, art, or pre-law would best suit her in the long term. After spending the first of four summers as a camp counselor, she chose to focus on teaching. Helping youth granted her an immense sense of fulfillment.

After college and true to her love of history, Rebecca worked as a park ranger at Appomattox Court House National Historical Park. Through the school year, she taught mostly high school but continued as a ranger on weekends until her weekday job expanded to include Athletic Director. For six years, everywhere Rebecca taught, she coached sports such as volleyball, basketball, and cheerleading. Due to her extensive international excursions, she sought to beget wanderlust in her students by leading groups of them through seven European countries.

Rebecca returned to school for a Masters in Communication for film and television production. Primarily acting as a producer, she also wrote, directed, edited, and created visual effects for various student projects: four of her short films were distributed through DirectTV. After completing her masters, Rebecca wrote and produced fifteen episodes for Reel Good Films which currently airs on the NRB and Credo Networks. On the side, her company Ephesus: Historical Consulting and Productions has done research for docudramas, documentaries, and historical film scripts which has just recently evolved into a partnership, Ephesus, LLC.

She never dreamed of becoming a novelist, but upon the recommendation of several film producers, she turned to translate her archaeological thriller script Sons of God into the Secrets of the Immortal Nephilim Series. Her 1636 script has won numerous awards and she is revamping her script To Kill A Goddess.

Today, if not rummaging through old stacks in the library, hoodie-clad Rebecca is often found in her “den” surrounded by still more books as she fervently researches times and ages past. The moody atmosphere set by region-suggestive aromatic candles and period music is slightly offset by the gorilla feet slippers, guitar, and gigantic superman coffee mug, but it is all a part of her whole.

She loves: Theological Mysteries, Dark Fantasy, Ancient Religions, Archaeology, History, International Adventures, Intellectually Stimulating Conversations, Visiting Historical Sites, & Messianic Judaism

Take This Cup From Me – The First Turning Point

You know, there are many things that have happened in my spiritual life that I wish hadn’t happened. I hear people ask for spiritual gifts or prophetic gifts that they haven’t been given already, and I wonder, do they really know what they are asking for? It seems that some people think some gifts are to be desired. I, the selfish, have actually asked G-d to remove some. They make life uncomfortable. People get scared of you. If G-d informs you of a hidden sin in someone else’s life, and you mention it… Fear. Outright fear. For all near. What if you know their sin? (This is when Beethoven #5 begins) Then there’s you who really don’t want to know other people’s sin. It’s quite depressing. It saddens and breaks your heart when others suffer, and you end up becoming their shoulder to cry on. On top of it all, you have problems of your own, you know? Do you really need to deal with other people’s crap?

Yes, bad, evil, selfish, child of G-d.

Then there are people who’ve seen glorious angels. Yeah for you. I see demons. They’ve tried strangling me before; I didn’t like this spiritual gift either. Their evil presence awakens me at night, alerts me while awake, harasses me, etc, etc. However, I will say this… when I got to a breaking point, I cried out to G-d reminding him of his promise that he would not push us past our personal limits, and that I was there, and he needed to step in and give me a reprieve for a while. G-d did. Overall, I was blessed because someone had already told me back in junior high how to cast out a demon from your presence, so when I could eventually breathe enough to utter words and get rid of them, I did. Unfortunately, I fear that many do not know how to get rid of demons when they are attacked. Now that would be truly scary.

These and other types of “gifts” have greatly hurt my relationship with G-d at one time or another – not because I did not love G-d but because well, here’s the bad, evil, selfish, child of G-d again…. who likes the spiritual realm making their physical life hellish? You know I’m sure that there are demons parading around Christians with angels protecting that Christian, and that Christian just blithely goes about their life in ignorant bliss. Wouldn’t that be nice? I think that would be very nice. I would enjoy that much better.

So, I’ve had a reprieve, and I thank G-d for it, but all good things must come to an end, right? I’ve been hoping against that statement, but G-d has been letting me know that I should let go of that hope. That he didn’t make me go through all I’ve gone through, to become a couch potato in the spiritual war around us. Yet, I continue to dream in denial.

So, I go to church, and I hear people asking for more spiritual gifts then what G-d has given them; and I, the selfish, think they are insane. I think that they should be happy if G-d has granted them a serene normal life. But what is serene? No spirit looming over their beds at night trying to reach out at them? Some husbands are afflicted with pornography, some wives are beaten and raped by their husbands, and some children are molested, abused, and never have truly known unconditional love. Others live in war ravaged nations, afflicted by genocidal tyrants, or starve in AIDS infested streets. Yeah, I’m selfish. I get demonically attacked, but G-d’s given me the power over the attackers. What are demons but an occasional inconvenience?

I’ve been blessed. Truly blessed in so many ways. I’ve always felt loved. Always had friends. Always gained forgiveness. Always had G-d’s peace.

So guilt consumes me. It hinders me. I withhold compassion, understanding, and speaking into the lives of those hurting because I don’t want people to reject me out of fear of my gifts. Bitterness consumes me. Why can’t I be oblivious? We all have burdens. No one’s is greater than another’s. They are just… different.

So, I’ve run. I’ve hid. I’ve remained silent.

This past weekend, G-d brought it to my attention that it was time to stop running. The reprieve was over. I sulked all day Sunday. Anger consumed me. I railed against G-d’s path for me. I didn’t want to do what G-d wanted me to do. Not because I didn’t love G-d because I do, and I could never exist without his love, but I knew it would be difficult. I knew my reprieve from the spiritual war would be over. You sit in church and watch people yearning for spiritual gifts, so filled with the Holy Spirit, so happy; then, you inspect your own heart, and its not the same. What does that say? Do you question it all? Does it mean you must not really seek G-d with all your heart? Does it mean you love yourself more than you love G-d? No. It doesn’t.

G-d gave me that peace this evening.

“Saying, Father, if thou wilt, take away this cup from me; nevertheless, not my will but thine be done…But being in an agony, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood, trickling down to the ground.” – Luke 22: 42,44, Geneva

If you are not familiar, these are Jesus’ words – the perfect Son of G-d. He knew what G-d’s will was for him, but he asked G-d to let him out of it. He knew what was coming, and in anguish he sweat blood. It matters not that you don’t look forward to what G-d has called you to do; it only matters if you do it. G-d doesn’t say, “If you love me, you’ll worship me.” He says, “If you love me, you’ll obey me.”

The guilt is gone.

Now, I ask for forgiveness. For anyone who ever suffered because I was spoiled or selfish. Because I comforted myself over comforting you.

So, judge me. Call me a freak. Say I invited the demonic powers into my life. Say whatever you want. This is me. I’m blessed of G-d. I’m forgiven. And I’m tearing down my baby crib to become who G-d has decreed me to be.

-a child of G-d, still wandering in the forty days of fasting given to my heavenly Father

Quoting the Serpent, “God surely will not punish you.” – The Second Turning Point

Rebecca’s enigmatic spiritual life began at a very young age and continued as she grew. The spiritual realm was just as real as the physical to her.

When she considered other’s lack of spiritual perception, she often thought her gift should be more widely distributed; it being unfair that only some should have it. For lack of it, some Christians seemed to flounder in their beliefs and nonreligious persons seemed unconvinced of G-d’s existence, much less His attributes. However, when she was violently, physically assaulted by demons, Rebecca came to a better understanding; never would she wish others to face such terrifying supernatural entities. Truly, sometimes she would have been glad to miss the experience herself.

At a later time in her life, she was stripped of her previously strong gift of being able to discern between the holy and evil; this void wrecked havoc on her relationship with G-d. For over three years, Rebecca grappled with the resulting estrangement from G-d and dark spiritual struggles, both which ended during writing Sons of God. When asking G-d why such a thing would be permitted, Elohim revealed that it was the lesson He wanted told: a tale of demonic deception and a warning for His children to test spirits and watch out for counterfeit spiritual gifts.

While researching for novels 3-5 in the series, Elohim opened Rebecca’s eyes to the truth and a great deal of spiritual warfare against the Church. She was shocked, convicted and immediately sought out a Messianic synagogue. By book 4 (Caleb), it becomes obvious that the series is Dark Fantasy Messianic Fiction. It didn’t start out that way, but Elohim had things planned all along. Rebecca was amazed that the novel series Elohim told her to write would open her own eyes and draw her back to where Elohim wanted her. It was the research on ancient occult religions and how the pagan traditions and beliefs have infiltrated and twisted believers away from the true faith that shook her spirit to deep conviction and a cleansing of all theological doctrine not taught in Scripture. Yeshua/Jesus, the Disciples, and Paul all warned of listening to the philosophical vain teachings that conflicted with the Lamb’s teachings. Peter and James warned of those who twisted Paul’s writings into a license to sin while John the Beloved explained that sin was the breaking of Elohim’s Laws. The series will be a calling to all Christians and Jews to obey Elohim and observe Torah/Law as Yeshua/Jesus instructed and lived daily. WWJD? Observe Elohim’s commands because that IS what Yeshua/Jesus did. Celebrate the High Holy Days that Elohim established to celebrate him and not the ones of the world, created by men, and based on pagan religions – a syncretizing (blending) of religious feasts warned against in the Book of Revelation – a warning to the professing believers who stand to lose their entry into heaven.

“Do not think that I have come to abolish the Law or the Prophets; I have not come to abolish but to fulfill them. I tell you the truth, until heaven and earth disappear, not the smallest letter, not the least stroke of a pen, will by any means disappear from the Law until everything is accomplished. Anyone who breaks one of the least of these commandments and teaches others to do the same will be called least in the kingdom of heaven, but whoever practices and teaches these commands will be called great in the kingdom of heaven. For I tell you that unless your righteousness surpasses that of the Pharisees and the teachers of the law, you will certainly not enter the kingdom of heaven.” Yeshua/Jesus speaks. Matthew 5

When will heaven and earth disappear? After the second coming. When has everything been accomplished? After all prophecies have been fulfilled. There are more prophecies in the Old Testament concerning the Second Coming of the Exalted Messiah, than the first coming of the Suffering Messiah. The second coming is also when heaven and earth will disappear. Yeshua/Jesus even repeated several times the prophecies concerning his second coming furthering his own teachings that the Law is not abolished until the Second Coming.

“Enter by the narrow gate, for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it. Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravenous wolves…. Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?’ And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you, depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’” – Yeshua/Jesus speaks, Matthew 7

How is it that the Serpent’s quote is so often preached from Christian pulpits? Has Elohim changed so much that what the Serpent first said in the Garden of Eden to deceive mortals, now is the truth? It is the oldest trick in the Book. Literally. Go ahead and break G-d’s laws. He’ll get over it. And let me tell you why you should, why it would be wise to do so. Just rationalize it. Interpret it anyway you like. There aren’t many quotes of the Serpent in the Bible, the Father of Lies, the Master Deceiver & Manipulator. So perhaps, we should stop and ponder this.

There is a difference in breaking G-d’s laws and then asking for forgiveness and philosophizing/teaching why we should be able to ignore G-d’s laws. Yeshua/Jesus forgives when we ask. Our hearts are child-like and repentant, but as Jesus told the adulteress, “Go and sin (breaking of G-d’s laws) no more.” There is a chasm of difference between making a mistake and asking for forgiveness and rationalizing why it is okay to break G-d’s laws for the rest of your life. The intentions of the heart are completely different. And Elohim knows the heart. David was a man after Elohim’s own heart. He committed adultery, homicide, etc, etc, but when confronted with his disobedience, he repented – he didn’t rationalize why he should be able to disobey G-d’s laws. He didn’t sit in judgment of G-d’s laws, with a child-like and obedient heart, he submitted to the Kingdom Laws established by Elohim. The Serpent taught Humanism in the Garden of Eden. Humanism (as defined by Wikipedia) is a secular ideology that espouses benevolence through the use of reason, ethics, and justice, whilst specifically rejecting supernatural and religious dogma as a basis of morality and decision-making. Thus, Humanism has come to connote a rejection of the spiritual realm, a rejection of a higher authority who has the right to instruct morals or inflict laws onto mankind, and elevates man as a god himself and not subject to any supernatural entity.

Concerning “The Lawless One”

Now concerning the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ and our assembling to meet Him, we beg you, brethren, not to be quickly shaken in mind or excited, either by angel or by word, or by letter purporting to be from us, to the effect that the day of the Lord has come. Let no one deceive you in any way; for that day will not come, unless the rebellion comes first, and the man of lawlessness is revealed, the son of perdition, who opposes and exalts himself against every so-called god or object of worship, so that he takes his seat in the Temple of God, proclaiming himself to be God. Do you not remember that when I was still with you I told you this? And you know what is restraining him now so that he may be revealed in his time. For the mystery of lawlessness is already at work; only he who now restrains it will do so until he is out of the way. And then the lawless one will be revealed, and the Lord Jesus will slay him with the breath of His mouth and destroy him by His appearing and His coming. The coming of the lawless one by the activity of Satan will be with all power and with pretended signs and wonders, and with all wicked deception for those who are to perish, because they refused to love the truth and so be saved. — 2 Thes. 2:1-10

“And the dragon (Satan/Serpent) was angry with the woman (Bride of Christ), and went to make war with the remnant of her seed, which keep the commandments of God, AND have the testimony of Jesus Christ.” — Revelations 12:17

Has the Serpent deceived you out of one of these?

May we all seek the truth.